Have you ever had one of those moments when you know what you decide right now
is going to change the rest of your life?
I had one last night, and today I resigned from my job to take up the offer I got last week from a guy I worked for many years ago.
This is either going to be the best thing I’ve ever done or the biggest mistake of my life, and the scary thing is I really don’t know which. All I do know is that if I hadn’t taken the chance, I’d kick myself from here to eternity, so now I’m gambling my very livelihood on my ability to trust my instincts and taking the plunge into the wide unknown.
I wrote my resignation letter last night, and it burned a hole in my pocket all day until I could build up the courage to actually go in and give it to the owners of the business I work for at 3:30 this afternoon. I don’t think I’ve ever done anything harder in my life that walk into that office and say “I quit” to two very serious men – not knowing what their reactions would be and if I’d be out on my arse in the next five minutes or if they’d wish me all the best and say “we’re sorry to see you go”.
As it turns out – and much to my relief – it was the latter, and it seems we’re all mature adults and my fears were misplaced and without merit. But let me tell you, not knowing which way it would go made it a very stressful meeting for a few seconds there, and it’s not something I could do with any regularity.
To say I have shocked my colleagues is something of an understatement, and it is surprisingly gratifying to see how many have come up to me in the last hour and expressed sadness on hearing of my decision to leave. In today’s climate employers rarely go out of their way to make you feel wanted or welcome – and it’s nice to know you will be missed when you move on.
So now comes the hard part – serving out the notice and still trying to give 100% when all the while I want to be gone and starting this new endeavour to see where it leads me. October 1st can’t come soon enough now – and not because it’s the Friday before the long weekend in NSW.
I don’t really know what the point of this post is to tell you the truth, but I feel like a great weight has lifted off my shoulders with this decision and wanted to express my thoughts to everyone else on here while they are still fresh in my head.
Sorry to have rambled on, I think I’ll pack up and go home now; then get roaring drunk!